The Stupidity of Hope

Hope is the dumbest, most useless and most potentially harmful feeling in the whole spectrum of human emotion.  Hope may or may not harm you, but there is no possible way that it can help you so doesn't it make more sense to err on the side of safety and fight the feeling.

If you hope for something really good and it doesn't happen you're left devastated.  If you hope for something good and it does happen, you're happy.  If you have no hope for anything good and nothing good happens, you simply go on as you always have.  If you have no hope and something good does happen, you're happy.  Hope gives you something to lose; living with out hope does not.

I can not think of one example ever of hoping for something making it actually happen, but I can think of millions of examples of people, myself among them, who were crushed by that pointless, useless emotion.

Hope sucks.

Seriously...

Nothing good?  Just more crap.  Awesome.  Thanks.

You want to tell me again to believe in that karma bullsh*t.

And Things Just Keep Getting Worse

Awesome, right?  Doesn't the law of averages mean that something at some point has to be good; that not every single thing can be complete and utter sh*t all the time?  I guess not.

What Do You Do...

...when hope starts to creep in?  Do you embrace it or do you run?

Pray for me.  Please, pray for me.

Bad Is Bad

Things are so bad right now that I don't even think I can remember what good felt like anymore.

Wouldn't it be nice...

...if I had someone to talk to.  I mean really talk to.  I mean not someone who says, "you know you can always talk to me," but really they'll tell me that I am wrong or silly for feeling the way I feel.

Wouldn't that be nice...

Mister Mister

I shouldn't be writing here, but I am so here goes...

A few weeks ago I'm out at an event and I meet a guy.  He seems ok so I give him my number.  He calls and the conversation is pretty boring, but I agree to go out with him.  It was the longest two hours of my life.  Seriously sitting home and staring at a blank wall would've been more stimulating!  He was perfectly nice and perfectly boring and a bit socially inept.  I got the impression that he wasn't in to me either.  I was wrong.

He called to ask me out again.  I have been given the advice many times that, as long as someone is reasonably nice, you should always give them a second date because they may have just been nervous on the phone.  So I called him back and agreed to go out again.  He wanted to talk a little more though and the phone conversation was just as boring as the date.  The phone call made me even less enthusiastic about going out with him, but at that point I'd already agreed.  Anyway, the plan is to meet up on Sunday.

Shortly after I met Mr. Boring I met another guy.  He is the opposite of Mr. Boring, but I'm skeptical of him.  He is very sexy and very fun, but I'm not sure how serious he is.  Our first phone conversation was great, our first date was so much fun and subsequent phone calls and text message have been equally thrilling! 

He and I are both very busy and the first day we could come up with to see each other is Sunday.  I know, I know, I'm a bad person for telling Mr. Thrill that I am free when I already agreed to see Mr. Boring, but I really really want to see him again!

So now what do I do?  Do I lie and tell Mr. Boring that something came up or do I tell Mr. Boring that I can only do early afternoon coffee, get it over with and then meet up with Mr. Thrill?

Help!